So this is a lesson I learnt during these two weeks.

NEVER choose a course just because 'my parents want me to' or 'everyone else is doing it', unless the prospects of your future career is enough of a motivation to spend a few years studying something you don't like.

If you don't particularly dislike that course then it's possible to come to like and enjoy it. But if you have absolutely no interest in it, it's better to change your mind. Sure, you could have a great career and be earning loads in that field. But you will be spending your whole life doing something that 'doesn't interest you'. 

Alot of people will tell you this and this is because it really is true. When you're interested in something, you will naturally work harder and be more focused, therefore allowing you to do well in that subject or field. This is the same for the opposite where if you don't like something, everything may seem 'confusing' or 'hard'. This is exactly my situation. Although I see my parents' logic of why taking my course would be 'good for the future', I can't see that I will be sucessful anyway. I obviously have no talent whatsoever for architecture and it is absolutely stressing me out. I have not been so overwhelmed by school my whole life. Even HSC wasn't this stressful in my opinion because all the subjects (excluding English lol) were my choice and my choice alone. I had noone telling me what subjects I should take or what subjects will 'get me a job in the future'. 

Meeting people with the same interests as you also contributes to how much you will enjoy uni. It's true that I've met many awesome people who I have no regrets meeting. But it makes me look back at high school and I just miss being able to spend time with people who share the same interests. To be able to fangirl over the same idols or discuss cosplay plans in class. High school is truly something you'll miss once you start uni.

If I had absolute choice over what course I would study, I would probably have chosen Bachelor of Arts and Commerce or Bachelor of International Commerce. If people haven't figured out already, I really really really really really love Japanese. Jpop, anime, manga, Jdrama, everything. Although Japanese pop culture is something I really am obsessed with, I really do love Japanese as a language. I just really like learning different languages so it has always been my dream to continue studying Japanese in uni and hopefully make a career out of it. Which was why I never would have expected that a few years down I chose a course completely unrelated to languages or humanities for that matter. 

Of course, it's not that I find the content boring or something. I actually find the lectures for Built Environment quite interesting, but I know I'm bad at it and will never be able to make a career out of it that I 'hate' it. Listening to lectures about it is one thing, actually doing research on it is another. I don't know... I can't even really explain why I hate the architecture part of my course so much.

But of course, it was still mostly my decision to go with this course so I'm not going to half-ass it. If I didn't give it a go and do the best I did, I would probably feel guilty when I transfer.

Plus I would probably have to put up with my dad's nagging.

Ahhh... welp it felt better to get that off my chest. Now I have to continue working on my project. hah

slowly dying halp